2010-04-27 Sevilla Golf Club is just awesome! What a course. Fair and more grass than I've ever seen before. Thick rough and in good condition. Nice to be back here.
First heavy workout session in a long time with Edfors. Found a bar and to say the least, I felt a little bit behind. We need a few sessions to get back on track with the lifting. Feel a bit sore already. Don't tell Edfors...
32 degrees at 8 pm today. Nice.
Mikko on a strole (spelled correctly?), and on a roll as well. 3 great finishes in a row for the Fin. Moi Mikko!
Bed time to equal out the jet lag.
2010-04-27 After I don't know how long, we finally got to Seville. Met Micke Jonzon at the airport and we flew totally different routes from Jeju but got to the baggage belt at the same time...funny.
Time to go to the course. Really excited to train and get ready for this tournament. Felt a little down the whole day yesterday and couldn't stop thinking about those ugly shots I hit that last round. But, I'm used to it and getting better at putting things behind me. Move on is the key. Let's get better and let's have some fun!
See you soon!
2010-04-26 No going out last night but still tired so sleeping on the 12 hour flight from Tokyo to Frankfurt feels as easy as making a 1 inch putt. Looking forward to be in the same time zone as most of the people I call. Trying to put some stuff together and it's been pretty weird trying to get hold of people with the 7 hour time difference. Late nights of writing emails and skype calls but it's all fun stuff so no problems.
Tried marathon pace the other day (20km/hr) and that's pretty amazing they can keep that for 2 hours. I'm trying it out on the 10 1-minute intervals soon. Really missing the olympic bar though. Kilos are flying off of me so I hope we find a good gym in Seville. I know Edfors is dying to see a bar too!
Does anyone of you guys use Final Cut Express as a movie editing program. I bought it ages ago but still haven't figured it out yet. Feels pretty complicated. I'd love to get a short movie done at Alex Noren Junior Open in July with nice editing. But we still need a filmer:)...
Korean Air to Tokyo last night.
Holiday Inn view Narita Airport, Tokyo.
Cool lounge. Minimalistic but warm.
It's funny how some days everything feels good and some days everything feels bad.
Somehow, I managed to birdie the first hole. Somehow is exactly what it felt like. My body felt totally different from two days ago when I cruised around in very strong winds shooting under par and never thinking about bad shots. Not exactly true but you get the point. On the second hole today, hell broke loose. The hole has played very easy in down wind but was now into the wind of the left. I hate into the wind of the left at the moment. I've had a tendency to leek it out right. Great thoughts to have. Not! And I got what I asked for. I leaked it out right and found the water. A bunch of shots later I had a triple bogey on the card. "Great start asshole. Thanks idiot". Not the conversation you want in your head with 16 holes to play. Specially when these 16 holes are playing tough in a 2-3 club wind.
Par the 3rd and double the fourth after chasing an eagle and flying the green. Now I started blaming Colin for not stopping me to hit that club that had a chance to go over the green. I don't like myself when I try to blame someone else. It's my responsability and if I would have hit the shot we both agreed on, it would have been the right club.
4 over after 4 and I'm panicking. I've felt this panic before. First in junior golf, then amatuer golf and then college golf. All the times I've started rounds really bad, I've felt the same panic feelings. I go out of my own body and want to leave the golf course. One of my strongest beleifs is to never give up so leaving the course is not an option. So instead I still grind and focus and I tell myself to grind and focus. But, when you tell yourself to grind and focus you don't actually focus. You focus on focusing. So, I do everything exept focusing on what I should do. All I can do is to focus on what not to do. Where not to hit it and what score not to shoot. In amatuer and college golf, I was always very worried what my teammates and coaches would say and think when I would let them down with a bad score. Now, I only have myself to let down. That feels a lot easier to handle.
So, why do I write this? I write it because I need to get rid of it somehow. Also, when I read Andre Agassi's book "Open" he explained how bad he felt at times and that gave me a boost to see that a world number one feels bad sometimes so I feel that I have a chance to succeed, So, maybe you guys now understand how I, ranked 70th in the world now and 52nd as my highest rank, can feel this bad and this will probably make some of you feel good. Even though I'm far from number one this might still be interesting to read.
Another reason why I write this down is that I really want to remember this day beacuse I want to feel how good it feels when I manage my golf and especially my head better and then I can compare to this dreadful day. That's why I love improvent. There is nothing sweeter than getting better and understanding how nice it feels compared to those bad feelings.
The newly produced plan I've got is really helping me feel good about myself even after a day like today. I'm so excited to get to Seville and get a new tournament underway. Played in Seville two years ago and finished 12th and I remember I loved the course and the weather so I got a smile on my face when thinking about it. I just have to go through Tokyo, Frankfurt, Barcelona to get there. No worries. The usual shut-off-the-brain for 36 hours should do the trick. I somehow lost my sleeping pills though. No good. Thinking about heading out in Narita outside Tokyo with the guys and try to stay up as long as possible so I can sleep the whole way to Frankfurt from here.
So, see you in Seville or at an airport before that.
2010-04-24 Picture marathon and it's been a very calm and nice day here. No tournament. Just a day of workouts, training and a lot of chilling and a lot of coffe. I don't even drink coffe...
The daily locker room contest.
Nilsson is stepping in as Edfors caddie. They got a very good record but Nilsson is a player himself and he is as far from a normal caddie as they come. He has hit more and takes more practise swings than Edfors himself during this week. I had him as a caddie a few years ago. Once! He started laughing when I duffed a chip that happen to get pretty close to the pin..."embarrassing Alex" was his response. He is a great guy and really fun to have around.
He found his peace in the hotel.
Anything that might help.
9.35 tee time tomorrow. Playing with the guy I lost to in the singles of Royal Trophy in Bangkok earlier this year, Oda. No more loosing.